MY LITTLE WHEELS ARE GRINDING BIG IDEAS=]

So hey everyone. hows it goin? hope its going well and that as a result of me not posting, you havent shoved dougnut after dougnat down your throat to ease the depression, or that in hopes a new post will magically appear, you have read the old posts out loud over and over and over and now when you talk to people its always in fragments and phrases from my posts only you speak it in a monotonous voice because you have lost the enthusiasm of shayla-personality. Convention in Finland was great, although the mosquitoes were a little too overwhelming and i have lost bits and pieces of me, so dont be surprised if i come home looking like swiss cheese. I am unsure of how convention in Sweden was because i was asleep most the time. lame joke im just kidding Stockholm convention hasne even started yet. but pretty close. It's not that i dont want to go home, but im going to miss these places ATON. i feel a sortof connection to them. it feels like home. and i want to go back as soon as possible. I hope my traitor-ness to Nebraska hasnt caused anyone reading this anxiety and depression :o here have another dougnut. ugh. summers almost over and i still havent mustered up the guts to come out of my room today and say hello and then say goodbye. Do you know what this means?! no not six more weeks of winter. :p it means i have no guts. someone tell a doctor! mt humor is horrible i know. its just that i've run out of dougnuts so now im going to have to borrow from the police station. how embarrassing. this whole post is embarrassing says shayla. look up there it says my little wheels are grinding big ideas and somehow im not seeing any big ideas. probably because your little wheels went a little too far with the grinding. oh yes i se e a little pile of what looks like colorful sawdust on the floor. it keeps falling from the sky. only the color is fading fast to gray. your gettin old shay. at least your ideas are. :p how embarrassing. so guess what guys, i actually drink black coffee. i bet that threw you off... no but for real i do. its good. not exactly what i'd call a party in the mouth, but.....well maybe its a bitter people club party. but i like the bitterness. how sad. maybe i should have asked the cop for more dougnuts after all. well im thinking that im going to get going now. this is too embarrassing.